I am Melody

When you go expecting nothing, you will receive nothing. 

When you go expecting something, you will find what you’re looking for

When you appreciate the unexpected then amazing things will unfold right before your eyes

Tonight they did. I met Jen at 5pm at Cava and God began speaking into both our lives. 

God you are so good I am utterly speechless at how You’ve blessed me with someone who can speak truth and power into my life and help You become magnified as we become less and You invade us more. 

I wrote this today:

I didn’t want to do anything today but You spoke to me all day long even as I am listening to this song by Anna Golden. I feel like I can finally breathe again. 

I used to sing that song by Mandi Moore “Only Hope” and I believed for so long that my hope existed in a man. Everyone has seen the movie A Walk to Remember. What I didn’t know then that I know now is she wasn’t putting her hope in a man, she was putting her hope in God. She was putting her hope in The Man - Jesus. 

I believed that hope existed in a man -that I might marry- because I listened to that song by Selena that goes “late at night when all the world is sleeping.... I stay up and dream of you” I’ve always loved romance but I didn’t know that I would find the most beautiful romance with God - not a man. 

That was because I listened to the song by Celiene Dion over and over again called my heart will go on. That was my anthem. 

I am a Melody, music defines my life. It wasn’t until I shifted my perspective on all these lies I have been believing and started shifting them into Gods truth that I understand that I am standing firmly in the promise of Gods words like I sing in the song “oceans.”

I am finding God in the mystery and my faith is standing and I am calling upon His name and keeping my eyes above the waves because I am Yours - but the best part is You are mine too. 

My music shifted and it shifted my life. What I started pouring into my spirit has been spilling out through the beauty of sound and I am creating a resonating sound with out even trying. I am just spilling out onto a notepad what You are spilling into me. 

The song goes “spirit lead me where my trust is with out borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever you may call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my savior.”

God that is now the anthem of my life, to glorify your name. 

I’ve also been listening to “Great are You Lord” and I am just feeding into my soul that it’s Your breath in my lungs so I’m gonna pour out my praise to you always. 

It’s the words you hear and the things you are and what you pour into your spirit that manifests. I was so high on life chasing boys that it wasn’t until now that I discovered the most beautiful love story of all - How much God loves me ... and how I am reciprocating His love. 

There is this song that I used to listen to called Shattered - the lyrics just resonated with me deeply as I listened to it on repeat. It’s by trading yesterday and I don’t know if they are a Christian band or not but that song spoke to me because I was just like why am I rejecting His love? 

And now here I stand, my roots are in the ground and Gods shifting my perspective and He’s changing everything. I no longer think I’ve lost who I am and my heart is broken rejecting His love. 

I know I am a daughter of God and He is sovereign. There are no coincidences or accidents. I am right where I am for a purpose and a reason. You are guiding me by Your Holy Spirit. I’m captured by Your holy calling, lead me Lord I pray.